Growing pains.
Disclaimer, I had my wisdom teeth taken out last Saturday, so I have had plenty of time to really think about everything going on in my life. Get ready. — — — — — — — — To say that the last three months of my life have not looked the way I expected them to is probably the understatement of the year. I have been living in Arizona again due to the current political situation in Nicaragua. I won’t get into all that is going on, but I do ask that you constantly be in prayer for that country. Be praying for our ministry, our friends, and the possibility for my parents to soon return to our home. Living in Arizona for the summer has been very hard for lost of reasons. I grew up in here, so living here again should be no problem right? I wish it were that simple. I have not lived in here, let alone the US for about a year and a half, so adjusting to this culture is hard enough. Realizing that a place that was once the only home that I have ever known, no longer feels comfortable, as home should, is a very unsettling thing. Now I don’t want to come off as if I’m complaining or that I’m unhappy with where my life is headed because I’m not. I’m just being real with how hard it has been. Trying to balance all of the emotions and all of the life changing events I have been though in just the past eight months is so extremely hard sometimes. There have been MANY moments of unhappiness, anger, bitterness, lashing out at loved ones, tears etc. But There have also been more moments of happiness with my best friends, my people, that I wouldn’t have been able to have anywhere else but here. — — — — — — — This time of life can’t be described with just one emotion, one adjective; it’s constantly changing. Everyday is different. One thing that isn’t different, God’s amazing love. It has stood firm in the times where I felt like I was completely lost, like I was making every wrong choice. I cannot stress enough how great God is. Though all the pain, the loss, the discomfort, I never once doubted the direction that my life is going (that might be confusing, but at times it can be difficult to describe the ways that God works in your heart) and the “direction” that my life is headed is to... Springfield, Missouri!!! Arguably one of the coolest places in the US (that I’ve seen so far) there I will be studying at Baptist Bible College, studying intercultural studies and nursing! I mentioned in my last blog post about my desire to study at BBC and a few weeks ago I received my acceptance letter!! It’s such an exciting time for me knowing that in a few weeks I will be moving my life, yet again, to a new place that I will call home. - Please be praying for me as I take this big leap into adulthood AND this will be my first time ever living with my parents.. I know it won’t be the easiest of transitions, it will be tough, but I’m so ready for it. - Also, keep my parents in your prayers as they head back to Nicaragua soon. - Pray for their ministry there and that it will flourish during these hard times - Pray for our friends in Nicaragua. Nicaragua is their home and with the current political climate, it does not make their lives particularly easy I know in my posts I kinda just from idea to idea, I’m in no way a perfect writer. I write the things that have been most impactful to me. I try hard to be vulnerable, but not overshare. I want to share my thoughts in the hopes that it might bring peace to another when they realize that their not alone in how their feeling. So thank you so much for reading my blog, keeping up with my life. It truly means the world to me that people actually care about what I have to say. -Natalie