2018 so far.
It’s moments like these, where I’m sitting in my backyard, basking at all the beauty around me, that I miss all the people I left behind in Arizona. There’s so many things I wish to share with them. So many people I want them to meet. One of the hardest things about being away/living this life is that they will never truly understand what it’s like. And I do wish that they would understand everything that I’ve gone through, so we could bond through that, but I feel extremely blessed to have the friends I do. Because for them, it doesn’t matter if they don’t completely understand what I’m going through or if they can even relate at all, they listen, they love, give advice, and help me get through tough times. God is so good.
— — — — — — — — — These past few months of living here have FLOWN by! I can’t even believe all of the things I’ve done since we got here. As much fun as it has been, there have been lots of moments of doubt. Moments where I’ve asked God, “Why? Why is this happening now?” I’m sure many of you know, the day that my parents arrived here, December 18th, my dear sweet Grandma went home to be with Jesus. At that point I hadn’t seen my parents in weeks, was struggling spiritually, but wanted nothing more than to be in Nicaragua. But we had to go home. Going home was hard, obviously, I don’t think I have ever been so angry. Angry that I had to leave Nicaragua. Angry that my Bema passed away. Angry that I couldn’t spend Christmas here in Nicaragua. Just angry. But as I said before, God is so good. He works through the hard times, He stands firm. — — — — — — — — — Now I don’t want to just focus on the bad, because I’ve said it twice, but I’ll say it again, God is SO good. Living in this country, working along side some of the most God-loving people I’ve ever met, it has to be one of the most rewarding things I’ve ever done. God has shown me so many amazing things since I have arrived here. So many things that He has for me. One of THE most exciting things He has showed me, or shown me again (because I have the tendency to ignore God on certain things (I’m not perfect haha) ) I’ve decided that I’m going to study at Baptist Bible College next fall. (2019) For years I’ve had the conviction to serve God, to be a missionary, and to do these things I need to study. The past year, I’ve known that this was the next step that I need to take in my my life, but I was too scared to lose what I have right now. But what I didn’t remember is that if I am following the path that God has laid for me, then He will provide all of the things that I need. — — — — — — — — — — I’m sorry I haven’t put anything up in so long. I’ve thought about it a lot, but I couldn’t figure out the right things to say. Thank you so much for reading and praying for me as I continue down this path. As obvious as it is that this is what God wants for me, it’s still difficult. Difficult to picture myself living in the States when I know that Nicaragua is where I want to be, but I know what I need to do. Until next time, Nat Thank you again! ✨