Life is crazy.
I have been ridiculously crazy these past few weeks. Between school, friends, and all of the other things we do throughout the week, I'm exhausted. But, as I sit in my living room, drinking me tea, thinking all of the progress I have made in the past two months, I'm okay with being exhausted. It definitely isn't easy struggling to learn a new language. Especially one as complex as Spanish.
I am in no way fluent, but I can see how much I know now. I can understand more and I can speak a little bit better. When I'm confident enough in myself and I'm able to laugh at my mistakes, speaking will come easier. It's the hoping over the initial worry of "oh my gosh I might say something wrong!" And telling myself that it's okay that I don't know everything and making mistakes is completely normal and that's what makes me human.
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Oh how my new friends have been such a blessing to me. They are the people I didn't know that I needed, but know that I have them, I can't picture life in Costa Rica without them. They have come around during times of heartache without even knowing that that's exactly what I needed. They care about me. They invest time into our new relationship. It is such an amazing feeling. Since I grew up in the same place my whole life, I never really had the worry of going into a new situation and knowing no one, I had that coming here. But they all welcomed me with loving arms into their lives.
They leave and go home to Ohio at the end of next month and I already worry about what I'm going to do when school starts again in May without them being there. One of my good friends actually leaves next Tuesday. She was the first friend I made here and I will miss her dearly.
I know that God will provide the people in my life that He knows I need, but it is hard picturing that right now because it's a big unknown to me. I can feel God working in my life and reassuring me that this is where He wants me. As much as I loved the life I had in Arizona, I know now that this is where I need to be at this point in time. Just because I love my new friends here in CR, doesn't mean I forgot about all of my dear friends back in AZ. They have all shaped my into the person I am today. I got to talk to a few of them this weekend and I was so great. Seeing there faces and hearing their voices made me miss them more than I already did. I am already counting down the days till October when I get to see them again.
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Please continue to keep my family and myself in your prays as Spanish continues to kick our butts. Also pray that God provides me some type of peace as my new friends head home soon and I persevere through the next 10 months of Spanish without them.
Thanks so much for reading!!! 🌼