Lost.

We've been here a little over two weeks now. Don't get me wrong, I'm definitely loving it. 

There is just some type of fulfillment that comes with following Gods plan for your life, yet there is still part of me that is unsettled. I have tried to figure out what that might be, but I can't seem to find it. It's just a weird feeling because I am happy,for the most part. Being content is something that I have struggled with for awhile now, sometimes I like to tell myself that I am happy with where I am to kind of trick 

my brain into thinking that I am infact happy. 

It's makes me so upset because I don't know how to fix it. I want to be happy, I strive to find joy in everything I do. 

I know all things happen for a reason and I know God is in control, but sometimes I wish it was just made clearer (lolz). Please don't take this as me saying I'm not happy, because I am. I am just confused as to why I am feeling this way. 

I'm searching. I'm lost. 

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IN OTHER WORDS... I have had a pretty interesting weekend. We went to a super cool waterfall, ate some good food.. which was good for a time. About 9 out of the 20 people that went on this trip got food poisoning (my dad and I included) so not fun. We are both better now, taking it slow. And then today I found out that I am my classes STUCO representative, which I am super happy for!! I am excited for the opportunity of growth, to be pushed to do things that if I had it my way I would most likely shy away from. 

Please continue to pray for my family and I as we get used to this new culture. Also, keep me in your prayers as I try and pinpoint this area of discontentment. I know that God will continue to take care of me and my heart. 

Thanks for reading!!! I will try to be more active with my posts, I had an inner battle with myself for like a week on whether I should post this particular post or not.. but hey! I'm going for it. Thanks for reading my thoughts 💭